I Can't Even Explain My OWN Explanation, It's Not Possible to Explain

I don't know why I ever tried. To say "I love you". But I guess that's even it's own reason. The word "love" is an abbreviation. Love is like pi: there's not enough characters in the world to express it. And even if there were, we'd probably all explode. So even if I ever say "I hate you", and deny I ever did, or would, love you, it's because I can't find enough words to say I love you, and it's easier to express hate. Humanity can find enough to express that. I don't understand why people can say that such a thing as "true love" exists. Is there ever a time you have said you loved someone at all, and not had the emotion of love (the non-abbreviation that only you can find deep inside that goes on forever and ever and ever) involved? Love itself is true. If love wasn't true, it wouldn't exist. True as a circle. A circle itself is an abbreviation of infinity. People aren't so timid to say that infinity goes on forever. Yet, most people would find it less than easy to say the same is true about that darn emotion. And I don't know why. I don't know why it took me so long to realize. I don't know why. Which is why I probably shouldn't even keep trying to know why. Because I've already learned why: and that reason goes on forever, because the expression for it is only an abbreviation. I can try to understand forever, but I never will. It's infinite.