Ambition

        While in kindergarten, adults regarded me with, "You're getting so big!  Do you like school?  That's nice, sweetie."
        Now it has turned into, "You're so grown up!  You're a senior now?  What do you want to do with your future?"
        Oh my gosh.  What do I want to do??  English.  Right?  You decided you wanted to do English something-ma-jigger?  Oh my goodness, THE FUTURE, RACHEL.  ANSWER THIS CORRECTLY OR YOUR FUTURE WILL BE A LIE.
        "I think I want to go to the U of U.  English, probably... I want to be an editor." 

         And I'm terrified that maybe I simply won't make it.

        Rookie Magazine is my comfort food:

"Take a look at everything you really enjoy doing, and every future you sometimes like to think you’ll have. Try to envision yourself actually occupying those futures; ask yourself what would fulfill you about each one. Or what fulfills you the most, right now: which hobby or action or mode of operation gives you something that nothing else can.
... And that’s the way it is for most people: if you examine your own needs, you’re going to find that somewhere, somehow, somebody else needs you to fulfill them.
... But still, in order to do any of those things, you need to break them down to basics. What are the core resources that you need to do this job? What can’t you ignore or skip, if you’re going to do this right? And where can you locate those resources? Answering those questions is your first step.
... Somewhere, someone is doing what you want to be doing. You need to talk to that person.
... Because here’s the thing: while you’re looking around for people who share your passions, and noticing what makes them great, you’re going to discover a few other things. You’re going to discover what you are great at—what makes you unique, what you can contribute that no one else can. And that’s how you find out who you are, and what gives you the basis to care about yourself and your ambitions. You also discover that pursuing your ambitions doesn’t have to be lonely. You don’t just find yourself, when you take yourself seriously. You find your community. And that can be the greatest feeling in the world."

"On Taking Yourself Seriously" by Sady


        So I'll stick with that answer for now. 

Don't forget to be awesome!